September 14th, 2004

Flying Ace


I had a dream I was called to be a missionary in Germany.  I was stunned and rebellious and didn't want to go.  I kept thinking, "This is a nightmare and I will wake up at any moment" but I never did.    I had to give a series of talks which I didn't feel prepared for.  They were all very formalized and I was supposed to follow a pattern, "Now I will be speaking on nature..." (?!?)

I kept being shadowed and trapped by a person trying to distract me.  She was a person I was going to be meeting in Germany and I felt pulled towards finding her but  I  KNEW I shouldn't be going.  I felt like I was a million years old and the last thing I wanted was to be surrounded by a bunch of 19 year old boys and 21 year old girls.  I wanted to call my old mission president and find out what was going on.  I couldn't even think when I even put my papers in.

  I was desperate to find a bishop, anyone in authority to find out what the heck was going on but I kept getting railroaded from one point to another.  Nobody would stop and listen to me!  Before I knew it I was at the front gates of the MTC.

I wonder if reading The Book of Mormon in my missionary tongue in the [Bad username: golden_ mp3] project_ is triggering these kinds of dreams.

I woke up feeling very anxious.


Dreams like this are odd to me because I loved my mission.  It was one of the best things I've ever done in my life.
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Jeanette=Variant of "Jean" with origins in Celtic/Gaelic means "God is gracious."    Also related to "John" meaning "the grace of mercy of the Lord."

(So, you COULD say `Robin Hood & Jeanette walkin' through the forest.')

Traits: People think of Jeanette as a cute blonde whose blue eyes sparkle with fun. She's smart, outgoing, romantic, and well liked. No wonder she enjoys life so much!
Famous people with this name: actresses Jeanette MacDonald, Jeanette (A Duke for a Day) Loff, Jeanette (Orson Welles's Macbeth) Nolan, Jeanette (Safecracker) Sterke; author Jeanette Winterson

OR people think of Jeanette as a medium sized brunette with brown eyes and an off beat sense of humor.  (I added this last bit.)

Atwood: Saxon names referred to the bearer’s estate or place of residence using the word “atte” (“at the”), which has survived in surnames such as Atwood, Atwell and Atwater. Continental European names often employed the particles des, d’, de, de la, de las, della, del, di, du, da, van, vande, van der, von and ten — all of which mean from, at, or of.

So, if I'm feeling a little obnoxious could I be "God is a little gracious at the woods" ? 

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One of my Great Questions I like to ask people is whether they would rather fly or be invisible.

I find it curious the older people are the more likely they are to wish for invisibility.  Strange I think, in a world so crowded, people so lonely and genuine connections so hard that people wish for this thing.

Children on the other hand nearly always yearn for flight.
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