I kept being shadowed and trapped by a person trying to distract me. She was a person I was going to be meeting in Germany and I felt pulled towards finding her but I KNEW I shouldn't be going. I felt like I was a million years old and the last thing I wanted was to be surrounded by a bunch of 19 year old boys and 21 year old girls. I wanted to call my old mission president and find out what was going on. I couldn't even think when I even put my papers in.
I was desperate to find a bishop, anyone in authority to find out what the heck was going on but I kept getting railroaded from one point to another. Nobody would stop and listen to me! Before I knew it I was at the front gates of the MTC.
I wonder if reading The Book of Mormon in my missionary tongue in the [Bad username: golden_ mp3] project_ is triggering these kinds of dreams.
I woke up feeling very anxious.
Dreams like this are odd to me because I loved my mission. It was one of the best things I've ever done in my life.