Jett (jatg) wrote,
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Nightmares...

I had a dream I was called to be a missionary in Germany.  I was stunned and rebellious and didn't want to go.  I kept thinking, "This is a nightmare and I will wake up at any moment" but I never did.    I had to give a series of talks which I didn't feel prepared for.  They were all very formalized and I was supposed to follow a pattern, "Now I will be speaking on nature..." (?!?)

I kept being shadowed and trapped by a person trying to distract me.  She was a person I was going to be meeting in Germany and I felt pulled towards finding her but  I  KNEW I shouldn't be going.  I felt like I was a million years old and the last thing I wanted was to be surrounded by a bunch of 19 year old boys and 21 year old girls.  I wanted to call my old mission president and find out what was going on.  I couldn't even think when I even put my papers in.

  I was desperate to find a bishop, anyone in authority to find out what the heck was going on but I kept getting railroaded from one point to another.  Nobody would stop and listen to me!  Before I knew it I was at the front gates of the MTC.

I wonder if reading The Book of Mormon in my missionary tongue in the [Bad username: golden_ mp3] project_ is triggering these kinds of dreams.


I woke up feeling very anxious.


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Dreams like this are odd to me because I loved my mission.  It was one of the best things I've ever done in my life.
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