It was nice heading back in the morning. I got to see a lot of things that were dark when I went by them the first time. I stopped for a few minutes to take in the view of Donner Lake...really beautiful in an oh so creepy sort of way.
I thought about a lot of things on the way back. How much clearer my vision is (mentally folks. My eyes are still shot.) how much more confident I am about my future, how badly I need creative people in my life.
The last night there we all went to RyGuy's house, (and like his res room, his home is supremely uber tasteful,) and had hot chocolate and excellent conversation. Ryan and I were chatting (which was nice because we hadn't really had had an opportunity before,) and I was joking how if I got hired by Pixar, I'd shave my head...because I've always wanted to try that at least once. Ryan quipped, "You heard it here folks!" and it makes me laugh. If I DID get hired, I'm sure we'd all have a nice dinner...and then pull out the clippers. :) BRZZZTTTTT!!!
And so here I am back at the theater. It feels...smaller. Much less important. My heart is not in it anymore. I can do my job in my sleep and I don't think anyone would notice. Except for that pesky need for a paycheck, I am gone.